Trust

"Trust that people are not meant to be trusted." - Dee

 

Poetry

“The Real Me”
[6/17/11]

When things get heavy, I leave.
When things get tough, I want to give up.
I laughed to compensate for the sadness.
Now I stay silent and dwell in happiness.
I never knew how flakey and fake I was,
but then again, I didn’t want to be vulnerable,
show my weakness and have people dismiss it.
I didn't know many who would give me reason,
or be bold enough to tell me I could stay.
I’m grateful for the few who saw things in me,
and years later are around to see the real me.
They saw the good, the hurt, the confused.
Sometimes I wanted to shut the world out,
but I would miss out on these friendships,
and the possibility of a loving relationship.
I didn’t want to be back to where I started
when I was in my room all broken-hearted.
As hesitant as I am of diving in the unknown,
I really don’t want to be successful on my own.
I want someone I can share things with and hold,
who can keep me warm when I’m frickin' cold,
who will be proud when I‘m up on my cloud,
who can be my rock when I hit rock bottom.

Fathers

“Fathers”

I have a father.

He’s not the sugar-coated father

we see on the 1990s tv shows,

but he’s here, he didn’t leave me, us.

He was physically present

even though he was emotionally absent.

He took care of his parents, his wife, his kids

while working not 1, not 2, but 3 jobs!

I was jealous of the time he put into his jobs and not me,

but despite my selfishness, I’m proud of him.

I know many people don’t have them.

Their father died, lied, cheated, mistreated,

have a mental illness, addiction, and so forth.

A father may or may not be the cause

of the proper development of a young man.

I know of a man who is successful without his father.

I know of another man with both parents, and is just as successful.

I look up to them both. They are grown men in their mid to late 20s.

Like Steve Harvey said, when a man knows who he is, what he does,

and how much he makes, he will be ready to settle down.

Their wives and children will be more than lucky to have them.

 I was going to have a child

with someone who didn’t want one.

He made a little bit more than me [$],

but he wasn’t ready for the responsibility.

He wasn’t a mature man; so can I blame him?

I did anyway; blamed him for losing my baby

when it was my body that rejected it.

Every time I looked at his face, I remembered

what I went through when I knew I was pregnant.

After it died, I fought back tears every time

I saw a pregnant woman and a little boy or girl.

I didn't want to stay with someone like that.

He had a father but it’s like he didn’t have one.

The Night Owl

“To know when to be generous and when to be firm -- this is wisdom.”

Elbert Hubbard

“Giving advice is sometimes only showing our wisdom at the expense of others.”

Anthony Shaftesbury

“The doorstep to the temple of wisdom is a knowledge of our own ignorance.”

Benjamin Franklin

“To acquire knowledge, one must study; but to acquire wisdom, one must observe.”

Marilyn vos Savant

 “Talking comes by nature, silence by wisdom.”

Proverbs

“Don't gain the world and lose your soul, wisdom is better than silver or gold.”

Bob Marley

“Wisdom oft times consists of knowing what to do next.”

Herbert Hoover