I Was The Bad Girl...Who F**ked Over The Good Ones...After The Bad Ones F**ked Me Over

The bad girl/bad boy veins will boil when they get mad

at you for not doing what they want,

and you give them no reaction =D

Stop control right in it’s tracks!!!

I am the GOOD girl...

who turned BAD...

then changed for GOOD!

You would think that the person

with the most control in a partnership

is the one who controls his/her emotions.

Nope, it’s the person who doesn’t know how to

and blames everyone for their reactions.

They use their emotions to get their way

in every situation in THEIR favor.

They play the victim (pity me).

How do I know? That was me.

No, I don‘t pity those

who only come to me

when THEY need something.

I don’t think so.

Get up and get yourself a life.

Cuz when I reached out to you and

wanted to talk/have you listen to me,

you didn't respond/left me for the

people YOU cared about
and failed to realize

I blindly cared about you

more than I cared about myself.
Why are you jealous
that my family and friends
are here for me
when YOU played me?
Did you really expect me
to fall to pieces 'cause of you?!
I got better things to do
that don't include
close-minded people like you.
Oh please, get off your high horse.
I'm free of your necessities.
You didn't pick up your
side of the bargain.
Now they are picking up your slack.

Now I roll with those I care about

and care about me equally.

Unfortunately, it's not you

and you can't be mad,

but you will and you'll cry

cuz being over 21 does not

deem you an adult

when you still

think and behave

like a baby...

GIMME. GIMME. GIMME.

No, you haven't changed.

You're still the pitiful b*tch

that you were when I first met you.

I took you back too many times,

and you still didn't believe

I would have risked my life;

taken a bullet for you.

Why? When I know you wouldn't

get up your lazy ass and do it for me.

No, you're not worth it "baby".

Why Not to Be Too Needy, Sensitive and Selfish...

Cuz in this world of instability, you need some sort of STABILITY.

I love my mom and gravitated to wacky people like her,
but for me, wacky won't get me anywhere but petty arguments
'cause I'm never sure how they feel about me and vice versa.
It's like they twist my words around and make it seem
like I hurt their feelings and it's very tiring to try to justify
every act and word. Glad to say I respect my father so much
more than before cuz although my mom left him so many times
cuz of her insecurities, he always took her back and made an effort
to do things differently as to not repeat history. He's the calm, my mom is the storm.

I appreciate people who don't just say it, but do change for the better.
If you can't pick yourself up off the ground, how will I be sure that
you won't try to kick me when I'm down...just to have somebody around?
I think if you trust in those few people who have seen you grow up and blossom,
seen your strengths and weaknesses and are still there; that you won't ever feel the need
to argue but to talk it out. But If I talk and pour my heart out, and you don't listen or reply,
F U for leaving me hanging. You'll see how it feels one day and you won't like it, but you can't be mad!