Jan 1, 2021

Words That I Couldn't Put Into Songs (Part II)

Don’t misuse me

Don’t break promises

Don’t confuse me

Or else you’ll lose me


Don’t play games

Don’t lie to me

Don’t ask me to change

Or else I’ll change you


Don’t be like them

The other guys from my past

They just didn’t last

Now you know that


Don’t be a loser

Be here to win

Or else you’ll never

See me again


Oh baby, oh baby

You are unique, you are unique

Oh baby, oh baby

You are unique, you are unique


Take me on date

Know just what to say

Don’t make the mistake

Of forgetting my name


Take me out to eat

Know just what I need

Don’t forget to complete me

The heart I left empty


Do you miss the way I would touch you?

Do you miss the way I would hug you?

Do you miss the way I would kiss you?

Do you miss the way I would diss you?


That came after no I miss yous and pictures

Of girls up in your phone, no, I don’t need you to hold me

You disgust me with all things you do


Do you miss the way I would love you?

Do you miss the way I would need you?

Do you miss the way I would hear you?

Do you miss the way I would fear you?


That came after you would tell me to not sing or dance.

Man, where was the romance? I had to change my clothes

With you in order to get a chance.


I need you in my life

I need you to survive

Don’t leave me right now, goodbye

Don’t leave me right now, I’d die


Why couldn't you stay with me?

Was it something that I said or did?

Tell me cuz I wanna get it right for next time

For the guy that'll change my life


If you didn't wanna be with me,

you should've said somethin' from the beginning

but you stayed quiet and made me believe we were fine


I'm happy where I am

I don't need you here nor in my plans

I just want a man who'll understand me

and be supportive of my dreams


Calling me asking me if you can come over

I don't really think it's a good idea, lover

You still got a girl and you're not even sober

You're like Freddy Kreuger but it's not October


I'm protecting ya for ya own good.

Telling ya what ya shouldn't do.


Single again

Feel so alone

No one to

call and hold


I've been depressed lately

I want someone who will listen to my feelings


I promise I won't leave you

I promise I won't cheat on you


In the night, I think of you and pray.

I hope God is keeping you safe and sound.

I wish you didn't have to go away.

My heart keeps you in the lost and found.


In the day, I think of you and sing.

I hope God is making this a great day.

I wish you could realize the joy you bring.

My mind tries to summon you my way.


When I saw you, I knew we'd be friends

When I was with you, I didn't have to pretend

You accepted me for the person I am

When you touched me, my heart you did mend (Repeat)


I won't allow myself to be used again

by those who claim to be my friends.

It hurt my soul to have to pretend.

And we all know how that ends.


Tossing and turning another night

since you're not right here laying down by my side

I haven't gotten used to the fact that you're gone

I'm crying in my sleep although it's been so long


Trying to nap during the next day

but my racing thoughts don't seem to go away

I've gotten used to the fact that I should write songs

to counteract the feeling of being so wrong


I thought God brought you into my life

but I was wrong cuz you caused me strife

Day after day and night after night

You continued to keep me with your lies


When I found out the truth,

God opened more doors because of you

I'm no longer scared of what's to come

I'm with God, the Holy Spirit and the Son





Him

 I've dreamt of one of my exes...a lot! I can't remember if it was in 2020 or 2019, but anyway, I felt safe with him. That's all that mattered to me.

I sometimes wish that same ex would want me back, apologize to me and say, "I'd like to treat you better." I don't think he's learned his lesson, though, if he's single.