*~* Wise Words *~*

I remember wanting to hear from someone close, or going online for some inspirational or motivational quotes. Instagram was that for me for awhile, but it slowly faded out. I look to Threads but even that can get redundant because if all I read or I'm surrounded by negative-minded people, it is hard to get out of that loop. I even looked for wisdom from mediums, psychics, and tarot cards but I kind of see where believing in them takes you away from God.

I recall sleeping and woke up screaming because I heard the tarot cards "falling" from my table. I put falling in quotations because I think they were thrown on the floor. What is usually thrown on the floor? Garbage. My sister said that maybe the cards had a message. No, in my heart of hearts I didn't believe that if something had a message, that it would wake me up at night in a violent way, and cause me to scream nonetheless. I had thrown them in the garbage, but because I thought my sister knew better *rolls eyes*, I took them out of the garbage and placed them on my desk but farther away from the edge. So, this time they wouldn't fall. Then one night, my night light lit up my room and turned red. I was like, "Great, it's the enemy's presence." Then it turned green and I thought of the Broadway play, "Wicked". I felt scared and I wanted to pay attention to my intuition and not what my sister's crystals said they meant. Red is "love" and green is "luck". Yeah okay!

I usually turn to YouTube to listen to what life coaches/motivational speakers/singers/musicians/actors/actresses have to say. I didn't grow up with role models or mentors, so I turn to my external world to give me that. I grew up watching Serena Williams on television and that was fun. Maybe that's where my obsession with celebrities came from, but their story is one to look up to because most came from nothing and made something of themselves. Now that song from Drake popped into my head, "One Dance".

It's simnilar to how everyone wants the "secret to a successful marriage" except I want the secret to success and how to maintain it. It's taken awhile for me because of my medical issues along with letting the enemy and his minions deter me. I usually open my mouth and get excited about my plans, but I realized some people don't want to listen to it, have an opinion/judgment on it, or want to put me down for it. So, I've realized that keeping it to myself, praying about it to God, writing it in my journal or only telling my therapist is good enough.